[ The 'problem' was that she was feeling the connection. Which meant trying to contain things again, like they've been learning to do since the first season. It was just that the last half of last season had them working on something to establish more of a mental border. Losing Karma had shaken her out of it, and now feeling both that hole where her connection with them had been and that new one just anchoring its way in around the feelings of comfort that had already been there from 'apprenticing' and helping out at the infirmary beforehand.
It's almost on purpose that her mind focuses on the hunger. Eden even manages a huffed out laugh at the question, tempted to try an attempt at lying or minimizing everything that was going on. ]
A little less worried about getting enthralled early, I suppose.
[ Eden was purposefully trying to be an easy novice for Karma. Especially after those horns had come in. Now was probably the best glimpse of the fact that she was still terrified at being abandoned and left alone again, running alongside the truth of what she'd just said, and actively trying to shove everything down. ]
I, um... I should warn you that I get bad dreams a lot of nights. Not the entire night- just, it usually happens more times than not over a week. I'll also try to block you out, but you'll want to muffle the bond during my Seduction class and some... after class lessons.
[ Raphael's been a busy teacher for a good few months. ]
[ Bones feels that swell of emotions, the hunger most of all. It's about what he'd expect -- he can't blame her when she's not in control of it. He'd have been far worse as a novice, so he has no room to complain. ]
I'll get the thralls to get ya somethin'. Whatever food you want.
[ He sets a hand on her shoulder, seeking to comfort her with the touch. He's going to get a lot more touchy now that they're bonded, but he's a dad through and through, so he does his best to project the certainty of his presence without being too overwhelming. If she was lonely, then he'd be there. Though not for everything. ]
Nightmares I can deal with, trust me. [ He pats her shoulder stepping back. ] If you're go havin' sex, you can count me out. I'll give ya privacy to figure that shit out on you're own time, you can trust me on that.
[ He's.......... a lil prudish, compared to most of the teachers in this school. But then, who isn't, when Raphael and Astarion and Xenk Yendar exist? ]
[ Eden is someone that definitely feels a lot. It's just that there's the fear that has her trying to hold it all down and as low to the ground as possible. Such has been the way; the more she likes something, or someone, the less she tries to lean on or depend on them. To keep from being too much of a 'drain,' so to speak. Not that she's good at doing so verbally. The mental control is good, as one could probably expect. Xenk can have, like, 15% credit.
Him being a grounding comfort now, it really just makes her want to keep that from getting too tiring, so she could have it around for longer. Meaning that it was helping. ]
That's why I'll give you a heads up on when the private lessons are... It should only be then. I've been easing back on sex now. Too many people like biting and scratching, which... smells too good.
[ Look, she's been paying attention properly to that whole PSA thing he'd put out a while ago. This is her practicing moderation and control. Bringing it up first and moving back to the nightmares is even a courtesy so her poor dad maker doesn't have to keep on the subject. ]
I drink things to get back to sleep pretty easily after the nightmares. There wasn't exactly a resolution, or familiar faces, before having been cured from that sleeping curse. So it's just... lingered.
[ It's good they have that out of the way -- age may be less of a thing with vampries, but Bones is on the more human side of the spectrum. He'll always see Eden as more like his daughter than anyone else. (Call that projecting, don't worry about it.) ]
Good. Now's the time to be playin' it safe, not messin' with other people's blood.
[ But Bones, being a master at "treating people one way and meaning another," catches on to Eden's little tactics pretty quick. ]
You don't gotta do that. [ He wasves a hand. ] Pullin' away, I mean. If I feel you havin' a nightmare, I can probably put ya right to sleep without any dreams.
[ Go on with your projecting, sir. There's a clear 'caught' look on Eden's face, when it's their turn to get called out. Not so fun on this end of it all, huh? At least before pointedly looking away, because she hadn't been called on it before. ]
It's fine. I kind of consider it my punishment for a few things. It'll fade away eventually... What with becoming immortal soon. Plus, if it's rooted in a memory somehow, like what Kirk and others went through, I'm okay with having it for a little while longer.
[ Well, Kirk's 'memory' wasn't exactly of the normal past, but people seem to be referring to them as such. They just wanted to give a fair warning when there's the inevitable panic and pain in the middle of the day. ]
Now hold on just a second. There ain't some magical entity out there what's decidin' who's right or who's wrong, whatever ya did, you don't "deserve" anythin'. Messin' up don't mean ya deserve to suffer from nightmares, so don't go believin' that.
[ He waves a hand in the air, dismissing that kind of talk. ]
I can see havin' a memory that gives ya nightmares, though. But like I said -- you ain't alone. So don't be a stranger, alright?
[ She lets him dismiss that kind of talk, even though she wasn't thinking of some magical entity being behind it all. It just seemed like an appropriate consequence after lying to Kirk about the nature of the cursed nightmare, in an attempt to alleviate any guilt he'd carry. ]
I can do my best. It's not my initial choice when coming across problems... It always seemed like it was for the best that I figure out things on my own.
[ Apparently Eden needed to be explicitly told to approach others for help in order to do so... ]
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It's almost on purpose that her mind focuses on the hunger. Eden even manages a huffed out laugh at the question, tempted to try an attempt at lying or minimizing everything that was going on. ]
A little less worried about getting enthralled early, I suppose.
[ Eden was purposefully trying to be an easy novice for Karma. Especially after those horns had come in. Now was probably the best glimpse of the fact that she was still terrified at being abandoned and left alone again, running alongside the truth of what she'd just said, and actively trying to shove everything down. ]
I, um... I should warn you that I get bad dreams a lot of nights. Not the entire night- just, it usually happens more times than not over a week. I'll also try to block you out, but you'll want to muffle the bond during my Seduction class and some... after class lessons.
[ Raphael's been a busy teacher for a good few months. ]
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I'll get the thralls to get ya somethin'. Whatever food you want.
[ He sets a hand on her shoulder, seeking to comfort her with the touch. He's going to get a lot more touchy now that they're bonded, but he's a dad through and through, so he does his best to project the certainty of his presence without being too overwhelming. If she was lonely, then he'd be there. Though not for everything. ]
Nightmares I can deal with, trust me. [ He pats her shoulder stepping back. ] If you're go havin' sex, you can count me out. I'll give ya privacy to figure that shit out on you're own time, you can trust me on that.
[ He's.......... a lil prudish, compared to most of the teachers in this school. But then, who isn't, when Raphael and Astarion and Xenk Yendar exist? ]
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Xenk can have, like, 15% credit.Him being a grounding comfort now, it really just makes her want to keep that from getting too tiring, so she could have it around for longer. Meaning that it was helping. ]
That's why I'll give you a heads up on when the private lessons are... It should only be then. I've been easing back on sex now. Too many people like biting and scratching, which... smells too good.
[ Look, she's been paying attention properly to that whole PSA thing he'd put out a while ago. This is her practicing moderation and control. Bringing it up first and moving back to the nightmares is even a courtesy so her poor
dadmaker doesn't have to keep on the subject. ]I drink things to get back to sleep pretty easily after the nightmares. There wasn't exactly a resolution, or familiar faces, before having been cured from that sleeping curse. So it's just... lingered.
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Good. Now's the time to be playin' it safe, not messin' with other people's blood.
[ But Bones, being a master at "treating people one way and meaning another," catches on to Eden's little tactics pretty quick. ]
You don't gotta do that. [ He wasves a hand. ] Pullin' away, I mean. If I feel you havin' a nightmare, I can probably put ya right to sleep without any dreams.
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[ Go on with your projecting, sir. There's a clear 'caught' look on Eden's face, when it's their turn to get called out.
Not so fun on this end of it all, huh?At least before pointedly looking away, because she hadn't been called on it before. ]It's fine. I kind of consider it my punishment for a few things. It'll fade away eventually... What with becoming immortal soon. Plus, if it's rooted in a memory somehow, like what Kirk and others went through, I'm okay with having it for a little while longer.
[ Well, Kirk's 'memory' wasn't exactly of the normal past, but people seem to be referring to them as such. They just wanted to give a fair warning when there's the inevitable panic and pain in the middle of the day. ]
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[ He waves a hand in the air, dismissing that kind of talk. ]
I can see havin' a memory that gives ya nightmares, though. But like I said -- you ain't alone. So don't be a stranger, alright?
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I can do my best. It's not my initial choice when coming across problems... It always seemed like it was for the best that I figure out things on my own.
[ Apparently Eden needed to be explicitly told to approach others for help in order to do so... ]